It's strange...whenever I talk to people I haven't spoken to in a while who ask "What's new?" I feel like I should have tons to say...

I usually have nothing.

I seem to be constantly doing things but nothing ever seems 'new'. 

Usually at this time of year I get all excited about Summer and the prospect of all the fun things me and mine will be doing during it and yet I don't have that this year.

Why is that?  Is it because usually I'd be planning a weekend away with my girlfriends by now, but this year that has been delayed until August timeframe?  I know that those weekends usually rejuvenate me and maybe I'm just feeling the lack of my yearly 'rejuvenation'?

I just feel lately I've been 'going through the motions', trying to get through my days and get things done.  Is this what this time in life is suppose to be about?  Getting through your days and making sure your kids have a great time?  Or am I suppose to be having a great time too...because I tell ya...lately I just don't 'feel' it.

I'm not sure what it is...I hope it goes away soon. 

Maybe it's this: (taken off of Rosie's site)
“People universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that is not how happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking or it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it. If you don’t, you will leak away your innate contentment..."

Maybe I need to start fighting for my own happiness again....