Youngest Canon Digital Rebel

Oldest Canon Digital Rebel

I love my kids... 

Warning!  This post is a little bit of rambling....

Sitting in a tree Canon Digital Rebel

So I'm feeling a bit better about life.  Not sure what it is but hopefully it will fully go away soon.  I've been loving Superhero's blog lately...she recently became a life coach by trade and has wonderfully inspiring entries over there.  Here is one that I thought would be fun to try but sadly (and truly this is sad) I don't have a dictionary!  I always use one online!!!  I'll have to go get one.

Opening Cottage Canon Digital Rebel

We got the cottage opened...I just love going up there.  It always makes me feel better...it's my Utopia. 

Maybe I just need to take a vacation and try and get back to the idea that my life isn't a straight road to old age...but that things can still change and things can still be an adventure...that's what I need...an adventure.  Maybe that's why I love my girls weekends so much, they always turn into an adventure. 

I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your INHIBITIONS

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

Oldest and Ben Canon Digital Rebel

So I haven't been posting lately as I didn't want to be whining...not sure what's going on with me.  I seem to be feeling blah but I have no idea why.  I usually have some idea about why I'm down in the dumps but this one has got me scratching my head.

So I haven't posted because when you have nothing really much to say other then negative things...what's the point!  So what's new?  I've finished my photography course!

I loved it.  It was great.  Each class was so exciting and interesting...the last couple of classes just kind of fizzled out in the end but overall I thought it was great. 

Youngest jumping Canon Digital Rebel

It was so great to have a Wednesday night off last night...and what did I do with it?  Watched American Idol if you can believe it.  I've heard all these people talking about how loopy Paula has become and yet I have never witnessed it (and I watch not religiously but often).  Well last night I finally witnessed some of what they're talking about (well, it was a replay they had from Tuesday night but I was busy watching the Ottawa Senators beat Tampa Bay in hockey so I missed it....Go Sens!).  She's was standing up waving her arms talking over Simon and I really had no idea what it was that she was yelling....she slirs her words so much that unless it's just her speaking and slowly it's quite hard to figure out what she's saying in the first place.  And (oh I'm on the soap box now!)...I don't get why everyone hates Simon so much.  Yes, I guess he could be nicer with his comments but this is a competition and you think the contestants would want his judgement to better themselves seeing as he seems to be the only one able to give an honest judgement of their performances.  I'm sorry but I quite like him.

Onto a more important topic..... THE COTTAGE IS BEING OPENED THIS WEEKEND!!!!  Can't wait....my Dad built the cottage (he died 8 years ago) so everytime I go back there I feel like I get immersed in the feeling of my Dad.  Can't wait!!!!

It's strange...whenever I talk to people I haven't spoken to in a while who ask "What's new?" I feel like I should have tons to say...

I usually have nothing.

I seem to be constantly doing things but nothing ever seems 'new'. 

Usually at this time of year I get all excited about Summer and the prospect of all the fun things me and mine will be doing during it and yet I don't have that this year.

Why is that?  Is it because usually I'd be planning a weekend away with my girlfriends by now, but this year that has been delayed until August timeframe?  I know that those weekends usually rejuvenate me and maybe I'm just feeling the lack of my yearly 'rejuvenation'?

I just feel lately I've been 'going through the motions', trying to get through my days and get things done.  Is this what this time in life is suppose to be about?  Getting through your days and making sure your kids have a great time?  Or am I suppose to be having a great time too...because I tell ya...lately I just don't 'feel' it.

I'm not sure what it is...I hope it goes away soon. 

Maybe it's this: (taken off of Rosie's site)
“People universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that is not how happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking or it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it. If you don’t, you will leak away your innate contentment..."

Maybe I need to start fighting for my own happiness again....

Have you ever thought of just chucking it all (my husband loves it when I use the term 'chuck')....of selling the house, the car, etc.  Taking the kids out of school and going to live in some other country for a year?  Instead of having to fight to keep up with your life and having the same day over and over and over. 

Wouldn't it be nice to wake up some morning and not have any idea what you were going to do that day?

Not sure why but this prospect seems really appealing to me right now...must be spring fever.

Oldest skating Canon Digital Rebel

This picture was taken a couple of weeks ago.  We were skating at the inlaws' pond and my oldest had fallen.  She was mad and was sulking by the side of the 'rink' when I called her name to get her to look up.

The look on her face just kills me.  She looks so miserable.  Children are amazing that way, they haven't yet learned to wear a mask and hide their feelings yet and so you can see every emotion written clear as day all over their faces. 

I think it's wonderful. 

I'm feeling a little bit like she looks in this picture today.  I'm missing my friends and hating the fact that I work during the day and they are at home during the day (some working, some working at being moms) and are able to talk to each other (some live far away). 

So I guess you could say I'm sitting by the side of the 'rink' sulking.